Thoughts in my head as I am waiting to get a bone marrow transplant.
I feel like I’ve been on a journey through time. Some days going faster than others and some barely scraping by the second. Never did I ever think a small rash would lead me here.
You always see hospital shows portray different scenarios and cases and never really grasp how it would be to be in those situations. My favorite was always Grey’s Anatomy ( I know, basic ) but it was a great background show with some amazing drama. Once I was admitted for my first hospital stay I realized that some things were over exaggerated in the show and some were not. Now that I look back on it I realize I was going to become an expert of my own in the hospital world.
Fast forward to my thoughts today, May 23rd, my fourth ( fifth?) hospital stay. I would be lying to you guys if I said I was hopeful or full of joy that I know I’m getting a bone marrow transplant. Don’t get me wrong, I am extremely grateful to even have the opportunity to get one and that my family can do this process. LA City of Hope is great, an accredited facility and professional. Yet, I feel like this process is light years away. It was easy getting discharged the other times because I thought that was it, woohoo! time for recovery! But now it seems like a holding pattern into a whole other process of another process. I think the hardest part is knowing that there’s lots of positives to look at but my mind just hasn’t caught up to that fact yet. I’ve spent the last months taking hit after hit trying to recover from something people haven’t even begun figuring out themselves. It felt easy then, why can’t I get through this “last part” now. It seems as if everything that I was holding back these past few months has come flying down like a snowball. If anything , this is the worst time to be feeling like this . I should be happy right? My vitals and numbers are looking good, I could discharge in between now and the procedure…. so what’s holding me back?
Five Positives:
- I am alive, stable and loved
- There is a potential cure for my disease
- I have a great medical team behind me
- The burger I had last night didn’t make me gag and was actually good
- I don’t have to inject my medicine into my stomach four times a day anymore
#overcome #love #motivation #life #believe #faith #inspiration #adapt #fitness #strength #success #mindset #hope #mentalhealth #inspire #goals #selflove #growth #strong #peace #nevergiveup #healing #change #power #live #quotes #purpose
Sydneyshealingjourne 
14 responses to “LET THE STORY BEGIN”
I love you Sydney. You were tiny when I first met you 20+ years ago. Then to be lucky enough to be your teacher! Wow so from my heart, you’ve got this and a great family, special friends and an advanced medical team. I’m willing to get tested for the bone marrow. If you feel like a visitor after June 8th I’m happy to do that. Hang in there.
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Hi Sydney,
Thank you for sharing your most personal thoughts. I can’t imagine how hard this is for you, but I admire your strength. You have so many people that love you and are praying for you. Just know we are all pulling for your recovery. Love and prayers coming your way❤️🙏🏼
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You are so brave and strong Sydney to share your thoughts and feelings! You have an army supporting you!
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Praying for you Sydney. I love that you’re doing this blog so we know how you are doing. ♥️♥️
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Praying for you Sydney. Thanks for writing this blog so we can know how you are doing. ♥️♥️
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Love you Syd. Thanks for sharing in your worde
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Syd… thank you for sharing your thoughts and journey. Sending you so much love and all the hugs I can send. 💕💕💕😘😘
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Sydney you’re an excellent writer! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and insight. Your strength is incredibly inspiring! We are all praying for you everyday!
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You have no idea how your “journalizing” your thoughts helps all of us following you on this journey. The Smith’s think of you often and talk about you and you courage/strength everyday. Keep the faith!
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You are strong. You are beautiful. You are resilient. Those are the first words that came to my mind after reading your post.
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We are keeping you all in our constant thoughts Sydney. You have been through so much and you will make it through this too. Sending you healing energy, strength, and good vibes! ❤️❤️❤️
The Jarishs
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Sydney,
You are one of the strongest people I know. You are brave and resilient. I think about you everyday ❤️ The Medina’s love you. We are Praying for Sydney.
Xoxo
Jennifer
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Mel has been keeping us updated with your health. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings during these difficult times. You are so brave, Syd! We will keep praying for your strength and that everything goes well. We love you 💕 Bivi, Jeremy and Scarly
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What a brave and courageous post! Thank you Sydney! Many many many people are praying for you! We won’t stop! Thank you again for sharing your inspirational thoughts and heart!
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